DEEPEST APOLOGIES

Recently my laptop has not been working... the keyboard and mouse won't work:///... and I have not been posting a lot:(. I apologize for this. I hate not being able to post. I also hate posting from my iPhone lol. But I thoughg we fixed the problem and now I can't get the Internet to work... BUT I WILL FIND A WAY TO POST TODAY. I LOVE U ALL.
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"H.A.G.S. Hope we hang out over break!"

stay in touch;)

          HOW TO STAY IN TOUCH OVER SUMMER BREAK... IF YOU WANT TO.
It used to be that I would make empty promises to people I didn't really want to be friends with, that we would hang out over summer and we could go swimming in my pool or go to that new scary movie coming out in July. Of course these plans never really happened and I would not see this person till next September. The truth was that the people I made promises to with my fingers crossed behind my back, were probably great people. So, it was not that I didn't want to be friends with these people but I didn't want to take the time to make these friends. I would picture us hanging out and just see a lot of awkward silence (AWKWARD). So, I realized that I really missed out on all these potential friends. Now, I try my best to keep in contact with all people that I WANT to hang out with. My mom says it is always good to have a lot of friends, so that no matter where you are, there is someone you can run to. PERSONALLY, I do not agree with this. You should not rely on anyone for your happiness. If you are alone in a room filled with best friends, then OWN IT. Go up to people, say hi, be kind, and most importantly be yourself. Never change yourself for a friend. You should not meet someone and agree with them on everything just so they like you. Trust me. I feel like I'm getting a bit off topic. So, this is how to stay in touch.

• Exchange numbers. Never feel weird asking for someone's number. THIS IS SO HARD. But, just work on it. If they take it as you want to have kids with them or you are secretly obsessed with them, then that is their problem and they will be very disappointed when they get a text asking about the Calculus homework.
• Arrange things. Have fun events like Freaky Friday with scary movies and popcorn. Or Spaghetti Sundays where you get together and eat spaghetti and play board games. The cheesier, the better.
• Write letters. It is the best thing to get a letter in the mail. So, why not write to people. This sounds crazy and your friends might be like wth but trust me, they will secretly love it.
• Use social media. Social media might be used for hating, gossips, bragging or whatever but it's purpose is to help people keep in touch. My mom still talks to people she taught in first grade, who now have families and jobs.
• Always wish people a Happy Birthday. This sounds stupid but it's true! No matter how little you know a person, it's and important thing to do. It lets people know you care. I say happy birthday to everyone.

So, I hope this helps with keeping ties. Bonds are important! So speak, love, and act with no fear!
                                                                                                                                     -M

I'M TALKING ABOUT LOVE AGAIN SOMEONE STOP ME

          Yes, I am typing about love... AGAIN. This is about a personal experience. A recent one at that. So, I meet this guy... actually I had a crush on him for like a year but I had never talked to him. Anyway he is in this one class with me. Let me mention again that love makes me do crazy things! So, I know the teacher real well and it was in like April, when I went up to his desk and looked at the seating chart for our class. I said I wanted to see what this one girl's name was when in reality I wanted to take a picture of my crush's photo to send to my friend (they have yearbook photos that correspond with where you sit... just wanted to clarify since I know it isn't like that everywhere). So, I am taking the pic and my teacher is like, "Hold uh Hold uh Hold uh... Are you taking a picture of *bleeeep*???" I responded with a "yeah" and a bitch face. He then explained how he was going to tell him tomorrow and he will hook me up with him and I'm like first of all... you're a teacher and that's creepy. Second of all... WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME. So, the next day he tells him and my life is over. Wait, wait, wait... there is a plot twist. The boy likes me too but was too scared to say anything. So, I want everyone to use this little story time as a lesson. You need to express your feelings because you never know what might happen. And everyone crushes so don't feel weird. FEEL FREE TO TRY THE TEACHER METHOD USED HERE. I wish you all the best in finding someone that makes you happy and then expressing that feeling to them. Thank you and goodnight. For all my students out there, go do your homework. Or don't. Homework is actually ridiculous.
                                                                                                                           -M

SUMMER (SELF) LOVE

          How to be bikini ready : by a bikini. Self love is so important. I have struggled with self love since 3rd grade. Of course, there have been moments of complete and utter satisfaction with myself. And everyone has moments of feeling down in the dumps. I just have to remember, WE have to remember, that there is no right way to have a body. There is no right hair cut or style. We are all so different that there can be no comparison. It does not make sense to compare apples to oranges. When the right person comes along and you are there trying to hide the true you, they won't even notice you. You have to always be yourself or you will surround yourself with people that you do not want to associate with. You will end up with people who are all trying to be alike and fit in. If anyone has ever read the poem by Shel Silverstein called "Masks" perfectly describes why being yourself is so important. It is linked HERE.  Do yourself a favor, and go read it! It is so short and beautiful and I am in love with it. It perfectly describes the problem with hiding the true you. Although I stress how important it is to not hide who you are, a lot of people are still finding themselves. It is so hard to really find the person that you feel happiest being. I still don't think I have found it yet.
          Back to loving your body... many people say they think everyone should love their body and should be confident and happy but are not like that themselves. I'm not calling anyone out! I understand how hard it can be to accept yourself 100% and not care what others think. In fact, my favorite Youtube video EVER is the "Everybody's Free To Wear Sunscreen" video. In it, Baz Luhrmann gives the advice to remember compliments you are given and forget the insults. He then goes on to say if you succeed in doing this, teach me how. This is exactly what I am saying. We have to imagine ourselves as little girls that need our protection. We need to love ourselves in order to live life to the fullest. You will not realize what you are missing until you start loving yourself. Whether you meet a man or a woman that you fall head over heels for, they will want you to love yourself too. If you are reading this right now and thinking that you will never find anyone then you are completely ridiculous. Take my word on this one... THERE IS SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE IN THE WORLD RIGHT NOW THAT IS BEING LED ON A PATH TO YOU AND EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T KNOW IT, YOU TOO ARE BEING LED ON A PATH TO THEM.  This is a fact. Everyone is capable of love and we need to remember that. We are capable of loving others and ourselves. Without love life is Doris Day at The Apollo or a door marked "DO NOT ENTER". Baby I'll be yours forever cause I never want to be without loooooooove! OOPS the inner Broadway is coming out of me:/ Anyway life without love is awful SO LOVE WITH NO FEAR AND LOVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN.
                                                                                                                                  -M

EYEBROW JUDGING

          Everyone has their opinion on eyebrows. It is just a fact. Whether you think they should be small and defined, or big and wild, or all natural... eyebrows are no different than hairstyles or fashion statements. They provide us with emotion and expression. Go test it out right now. Look in the mirror, cover up your eyebrows, and try to look confused. Pretty hard right?
          One of the hardest things in the world is trying to get your eyebrows perfect. I have never had eyebrows that were the same. Always sisters not twins... although sometimes mine are more like cousins... Anyway my point is that people should not be judged bases on their eyebrow quality. This is very hard to do, I understand. But eyebrows are just like ice ream flavors. Not everyone like mint chocolate chip and not everyone likes strawberry. But people aren't like oh I don't like that person because they eat chocolate ice cream. I have to admit, my eyebrows look like caterpillars right now. I just don't have time to get them done. This brings me to another point that I would like to bring up. You should always take time to care for yourself. Spend money on yourself. Pamper yourself. Treat yourself someone you love. Because you should LOVE your body.
          Eyebrows to me are a sign of empowerment and strength. Is that weird? It's like when I have my brows done, I can take on the world. And remember you can.
                                                                                                                -M

WHEN THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE THINKS HE IS IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE

          I'm going to be honest... when your crush has a girlfriend, it is really hard not to hate her. What I have to remind myself is that it is not her fault that she is dating him. You guys actually have a lot in common seeing that you are in love with the same person. Another point... women should empower each other. We have to wish the best for our crush and whoever he/she is with.
         We also have to trust the fact that if you are meant to be with this person, then it will happen. Anyway... I am in fact currently falling for a boy who is dating someone else. They are very off and on. Of course, this just puts me through more heartbreak. Every time I see that her name is not in his instagram bio (high school... am I right?) I get a little spark in my step and I realize that hey! maybe I am meant to be with this person. But then a week later when he has HER name with heart eyes next to it, I have to admit, it hurts my heart a little. I just keep saying to myself... "I should just want him to be happy... If I really care for him, then I should want him to be with who he wants to be with." But, I seriously do not understand why he just can't be happy with me! I am a great person! I make jokes, I like ice cream, I have a Papa Johns account with lots of points that we can use for free pizza! And in the moment when you cannot have this one person out of millions and billions and trillions it can feel like the literal END OF THE WORLD. I AM NOT EXAGERATING!
          Another thing I need to cover is I always so to my mom (I tell my mom virtually everything), "I will just wait. I mean they are either going to break up or get married (these actually aren't the only possibilities but whatever) and I'm betting on the break up option." This is not really a good way to think. You should never wait around for anyone. Keep exploring and having fun. Don't put everything on hold for one boy. Forget about him, and when he is back on the market (I HATE THAT EXPRESSION IT IS SO DEGRADING) go for it and see what happens. But who knows? By the time that happens, you might already have a hot, intelligent boyfriend who can make you laugh so hard you pee all over your new orange chinos. You never know what will happen. You can't even be 100% sure of what will happen in the next second, so live in the moment. Live your own life and never depend on anyone else for your happiness.
                                                                                                                      -M

SO WHEN YOU ACT THAT WAY, IT'S OK, BUT WHEN I DO, IT'S NOT.

         Hello blog babies! Anyone ever been in a situation where there is this person who always acts like a jerk but everyone just ignores it because that's just how they always are? I'm so done with people like that. I am not going to put up with, "Oh, well you know, that's just how they are, they can't help it." Like, ok so because I am usually a descent person, when I freak out everyone is like WHATS HER PROBLEM JEESE. It just doesn't seem fair. It is not okay for someone to be able to act unkindly and everyone just has to deal with it. I read this thing one time and it said that the moment someone takes your happiness away, you should stop associating with them. I pretty much agree with this. Every once in a while a really good friend might accidently say something that rubs you the wrong way and that is ok. And it is ok for you to be mad at them for a little. Make sure they make an effort to make up for it though. And if they actually said something to deliberately make you feel bad about yourself, then drop them like a hot potato. I have these two friends, more like sisters actually, who I can honestly say have never made me feel bad about myself. Yes, they have gotten on my nerves, trust me, but that happens. I go to school with this girl who is always so sweet and she has a friend who is very cold to everyone and everyone likes her because she has a very dry humor (that's one thing we have in common). So, one time the friend made fun of the sweet girl's dress. The girl was obviously hurt and kind of started ignoring her friend. After class she told her other friend about this and they said something like, " That is awful, but you know how she is. She can't help it." ARE YOU KIDDING ME. No one should make fun of anyone. PERIOD. It should stop happening! Thank you for letting me rant. I will close with something my second grade teacher always used to say... "I'll get off my soap box now."
                                                                                                                     -M

BOYS??? WHERE!?!? *throws up* -bobs burgers

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    Anyway (whenever I say this it reminds me of the end of The Ellen Show) boys are a great subject! I would write about girls too for lesbians and boys reading this but I honestly have no idea what it's like being in a relationship with a girl. I don't even know a lot about being in a relationship with a boy. Let me start off this post by saying love makes you do CRAZY things. and say crazy things. One time this boy liked me and he said that if I didn't date him, then he would just die because his love for me was like Romeo and Juliet (little did he know that at the beginning Romeo just wanted to sleep with Juliet who had promised abstinence to god). I had seen this kid once at a football game. Now here we are a year later and he is tryna get with my arch nemesis. Anyway (ELLEN) what I am trying to say is that when someone doesn't like you, it can feel like the end of the world. I know that feeling, in fact, I am experiencing it right now. I am highkey crushing on a boy but trying to keep it lowkey. Of course he has a girlfriend. REMEMBER... WOMEN EMPOWER WOMEN. I have no interest in flirting with him or trying to steal him. I am just patiently waiting. And if they get married then I know it wasn't meant to be (well they could divorce...). I know how awful it feels when the ONE person you want... you cannot have... for whatever reason. But I can guarantee that you will move on faster than you have ever expected. Like, I used to be obsessed with a boy who now I don't even give a second look. Anyway boys are tricky because it's like you never know anything about them. I mean, you should if you are dating them but it is hard. And shopping for them is like WAHHH? Another point that I need to bring up is that you're world should not revolve around boys! Never EVER dress for a boy. They don't even notice Lou Vuittons. Dress for yourself. Even though I know you have heard it a million times. Never pick an outfit wondering if a boy will like it. Do you really want to be with someone that likes you depending on your clothes??? Wear booty shorts, and 10 inch heels, and sun dresses, and overalls, and backless dresses, and converse and whatever makes you feel good. Boys are fun though. It's fun to go somewhere with your best friend and see a cute boy. It is fun to go to school everyday knowing that you will get butterflies when you walk into 4th period. Never pick a boy over a friend. Friends are things that you should cherish and not something you should take advantage of. Make time for both your love interests and your bffs. Also, you're boyfriends should be your best friend... along with your other best friend of course. LAUGHING IN A RELATIONSHIP IS SO IMPORTANT. WITHOUT LAUGHTER YOU WILL BE BORED. Be with someone who talks about things that you have strong opinions on. THERE WILL BE MANY POSTS ON THIS TOPIC IN THE FUTURE. THESE ARE JUST THE CURRENT THOUGHTS.
                                                                                                  -M

MUSIC TO MY EARS

Music is literally so important in everyone's lives. They play it in the elevator and in office buildings and they even played it on the school announcements every morning when school started in middle school. That way everyone would get a healthy dose of Kidz Bop for the day. Music is like colors for your ears (me trying to be a poetic blogger). It can be used for a LOT of things. There are even studies that show that if you listen to music while you are studying and then listen to the same music when you take a test, it will help you remember what you studied. Cool. If only we were allowed to listen to music when we took tests. Songs are used in movies to create emotion. No one really gives a lot of credit to the people who choose what song to go in certain parts of the movie but without them, movies would not be half as amazing.
                           These are some songs that I listen to, depending on how my feels are.
In love and want to imagine you and your crush in different famous movie scenes together?

•  Sunday Kind Of Love -Jersey Boys... There are other versions but this is my personal favorite.
• One Last Dance -R5
• Robbers -1975
• Weekend -Mocki (I like the Jai Wolf remix)
• We Don't Have To Take Our Clothes Off - originally by Jermaine Stewart but I also like the Ella Eyre cover)
• Cecilia - The Vamps
• Valerie - Amy Winehouse

Feel like singing karaoke but not at a bar (or a local applebees on a Friday night for my youngins)?

• I Love Rock and Roll - Joan Jett and The Blackheart (duhh)
• Upgrade U -Beyoncé
• Two Princes - Spin Doctors
• I'll Be Alright - Passion Pit
• Diet Mountain Dew - Lana Del Ray
• Are You Gonna Be My Girl - Jet
• Comeback Kid - Brett Dennen
• 1985 - Bowling For Soup

HARDCORE!!!!!!!!! When you want a sleeve tattoo but your mom tells you to sleep on it... aka rap and loud music... I don't listen to these that much...

• Teenagers - My Chemical Romance
• Sweatpants - Childish Gambino
• Anthem Part II - Blink 182
• I Love College - Asher Roth
• Fluorescent Adolescent - Artic Monkeys
• Cocoa Butter Kisses - Chance The Rapper

Awkward and Sexual????????

• Often - The Weeknd
• Wicked Games - The Weeknd
• Earned It - The Weeknd
• Do You There - Skizzy Mars ft. Marc E. Bassy
• Lock it Up - Marc E. Bassy ft. Kehlani
• Ignition - R. Kelly

All time Favorites... If you just need some new music I your life....

• The Bakery - Artic Monkeys
• Starlight - Taylor Swift
• Nine In The Afternoon - Panic! At The Disco
• Kickin' Rocks - Taylor Mathews
• Five Colors In Her Hair - McFly
• That Girl - McFly
• Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind
• Mardy Bum - Artic Monkeys
• 18 - Anarbor
• Masquerade - Sleeping at Last
• Beware The Dog - The Griswolds
• I Wanna Get Better - The Bleachers
• Centerfold - The J. Geils Band
• Smile - Mikky Ekko
• Numbers - Hoodie Allen

this list is forever changing ------M

HOW TO MAKE A VISION BOARD

So, I stayed home from school today because I feel kinda sick. And also because everyone needs to take a day off sometimes. Oh, and I had a big presentation today and I was like no thank you. Anyway today we will be talking about making vision boards!!! Isn't that exciting? I know they have tutorials for these everywhere but I'm still doing one. I'll post again today. Now grab your visions and a board and lets get this started.

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               Vision Boards are suppose to remind you what you want from the precious life that you have. They are used to inspire you, and are proven to sub-consciously make you work towards those things. They are suppose to make you happy. Do not put anything on the board that might stress you out. Just sit down and think of all the things that you want to accomplish. It definitely does not have to be money, a degree, a man, a job etc... In fact only one of those things are on my board. Also just to clarify that putting cute boys on your board does not mean you think that you need boys or a relationship to make you happy. It just means that you see one in your future. Anyway do not be ashamed to put everything you like and want on this board. It is yours and does not have to be shared with anyone.

STEP 1

• Find old magazines, go on Pinterest, We Heart It, Tumblr, whatever you like, and find pictures, quotes, and anything inspiring or anything that makes you happy. Some good magazines are Oprah, Teen Vogue, Vogue, Nylon, Seventeen, etc... EX: If you are looking for love... a picture of a couple. Want to eat healthier... pictures of healthy food. Need workout motivation... a picture of your goal body. Love fashion... pictures of your fave outfits. If you see anything that you are drawn to then just rip it out! You get the idea. Add quotes too. Especially ones that remind you to be a better person and bring a smile to your face.

STEP 2

• Now find a board... any kind. Or just a piece of paper... whatever you want. This does not require a trip to Target or Michaels. Trust me, it will look pretty no matter what. You can also use the boards that have like the wine cork back. Don't know what they are called.

STEP 3

• Arrange the photos that you chose onto the board. Take out anything that does not appeal to you anymore. If you need more pictures then just go back to step 1.

STEP 4

• Glue the photos down once you are sure of their arrangement. I like using stick glue but it doesn't matter. Remember that you will change this board many times. Adding pictures and taking off pictures... your life is always changing along with your goals. Add things like glitter or lace or ribbon. You can even put your picture in the middle of the board. It should be a picture where you are having fun, or one that you look happy in.

STEP 5

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• Hang your board somewhere that you will see it every morning. In your bathroom or on the wall next to your bed.

 

                                                                                        -M

MOVIE -HOODIE ALLEN

 MOVIES???? I'd rather stay home with my mom on a Friday night and watch movies than go to a party. And trust me I love a good party as much as the next troubled high schooler. But movies make everything better. It's like being able to go to another world for two hours and pause the outside world. The credits at the end of an amazing movie are probably on my top 10 list of things that make me sad. That's why immediately after I finish one good movie, I have to find another. So keep reading to find a list of 5 of my favorite underrated movies that will come in handy if you want to spend 10 hrs of movie watching.

                   One of my favorite movies is Leap Year ( TRAILER HERE:) ) The most underrated movie ever. The pictures you're about to see really do not give it justice. It looks like a Hallmark movie that no one has ever seen (sorry hallmark... most of your movies are great) but everyone knows what I mean. So this movie is about a young (25) girl (played by Amy Adams) who is always waiting on her boyfriend (Adam Scott) to propose to her. She is finally fed up with him and decides to take matter into her own hands. She decides to secretly follow him to Ireland and decides to propose to him on Leap Year (it's an old tradition that women propose to men on leap day). So, she meets a man (Matthew Goode) on the way and I'm not going to say what happens but I think we can all guess. It's funny and the cutest thing since the video of the baby panda sneezing (click here to watch that! ). Anyway if you love rom-coms (why did I say that) then this movie is what you need to watch ASAP!

 

 

 

 

Number 2: PROM. Coincidentally prom is coming up. But this movie is full of relationships. And I want to be a part of every one. I kinda lied in the first movie description because this movie is probably the most underrated ever. It has romance, and comedy (lol rom-com) and it makes you feel crazy warm and cute inside. It has cute boys with even cuter personalities. I don't want to even try to explain it because I know that I won't do it justice. This is one of those movies that I watch in bed the day before a big test, to take my mind off things. This movie is like having a boyfriend, without having to have a boyfriend. This movie is like eating without gaining weight. This movie is like shopping without having to pay. O.K. that's all.  CLICK HERE FOR THE TRAILER!!!!!!!!!!






 3........FUN SIZE....... another kid's movie........oops. But this is another UNDERRATED MOVIE. If I have to type that for every description, I will. But this movie stars Victoria Justice as Wren, a girl who loses her brother the night of Halloween and is also summoned by the cutest guy in school (actually played by the guy with long hair in Prom-see picture above with milkshakes lol) and is also being crushed on by one of her bffs, Roosevelt, played by Thomas Mann. It's again one of the greatest movies of all time and makes my heart melt every time I watch it. Yes, the ending made me cry. But DISCLAIMER: this is actually not really a kids movie so DO NOT watch with kids under 13... or whatever. What I'm trying to say is it's not really a kids movie... just a teenage movie. WOOO TRAILER HERE!!!

 

And coming in at number 4 is 500 Days Of Summer. This movie makes me look at love completely differently (this is not B.S.). This movie is about a girl  (Zooey Deschanel) who meets a guy (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) and he falls in love with her and you know the story. But the movie is based on the fact that you might think you are in love with someone, when in reality, you are in love with the person you made them be. SPOILER: In the end they break up and it actually flashbacks to times when he was so caught up in love that he missed all these signs that she clearly wasn't falling for him as hard as he did for her. And in the end, it was no one's fault. We'd like to blame it on the girl even though, she did nothing wrong. It's not her fault that she doesn't like him. That's how love works. The best part though is the last scene that makes you realize that love will always find you and maybe you needed to go through heartbreak to see that. Overall it's the ultimate love story and makes me want to call up the kid that sits behind me in math and ask him on a date. You know how this works... click here for the trailer:)

Ok here we are at number 5 already. So the last completely underrated movie I will talk about is Beautiful Girls. This movie should be considered a classic. But it's not. This movie is about these 10 friends go back to their hometown for a high school reunion. When the star, Timothy Hutton, arrives home, he doesn't only have to face his problems but also help his friends through everything they are going through.  It's such a funny movie and I just adore every part of it. AND ROSIE O'DONNEL IN THIS MOVIE IS AMAZING!!!!!! There are so many good quotes from this movie but I'll just put this one, said by Natalie Portman playing Marty, " I'm 13... but I've got an old soul." Ok so that does not sound as good on my blog as it does in the movie but just watch it and see for yourself. da link for da trailer lies here so click it.

                                                  

                                                                                                         -M