So, we all have friends that we drift away from and just move on from and maybe it is because of a fight or maybe it's just because you have both changed and either way life goes on. Sometimes friends stay with us forever and change our lives. And sometimes, friends stay in your life but become fake friends and it might even be better for the both of you to never talk again but you are still holding onto that little piece of them from when you were 2 peas in a pod and told couldn't imagine life without them. For a while now my friend of 10 years has been starting to drift away from me and I have been trying to hold on because it's hard to just lose someone like that. Well, she has been being kind of a backstabber. And trust me, I really don't need her in my life. I have friends. She has friends too but I am not just going to give up on her. But I really think that if I made no effort to ever talk to her again, we would never talk again. Anyway, back to the backstabbing thing. Actually, let's start a new paragraph for this bs you are about to hear.
My friend of TEN YEARS... has known that I have liked this boy. And tbh I like a lot of boys. I am not gonna lie, I have my eye on like 5. But this one is one I have liked for maybe a year now and he is special you know? Well, I am not going to say what happened specifically because with my luck she will find this blog and be like "OH HELL NO. " And then spread rumors about me or something and make out with all 5 of the boys I like. But basically she hung out with my crush... not alone but still... and didn't even invite me. Like if I was going out with her crush I would be like "Oh hey! Come out with us and here switch seats with me in the movies so you can sit next to Tim (fake name;))" But no invitation for me. It really sucks being the nice friend. And then my friend group ran into them while they were out. So, I say hi or whatever. Then the next time I see this backstabbing friend she has the guts to tell me that he didn't seem like he wanted to talk to me when I saw them and that he was the one that wanted to hang out AND THAT HE PROBABLY WOULDN'T WANT TO DATE ME BECAUSE I STALK HIM. Ok so maybe I'm persistent but that's what makes me fun! And then she says that they talked a lot and actually had a lot of fun together. I prayed to God in this moment to stop me from slapping her right then and there. Honestly, even if they dated or whatever I WOULDN'T CARE! Like ok if he is that bad of a person to like you then you can have him! I obviously didn't know him that well then! I am just mad because I am actually the one trying to mend our relationship when she is over here throwing it away and I didn't want to say but I am getting so worked up so here it is... she needs me WAY more than I need her. So, good riddance and have a good life without me!
If anyone else is going through this I FEEL FOR YOU. It's so hard to lose a good friend. But trust me, everything works out for the best. And something my mom always says, everything comes out in the wash. Be nice! "Don't plant flowers in someone's garden who isn't going to water them."-Don't know who said this but it wasn't me! I saw it on Pinterest!:).
-M
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