Boys are making me sad and i need to vent

So... where do I begun. I have been talking to this boy. Whose name will not be revealed. I like him. I like him a lot. Or maybe I lost the privledge to say that. Lets say I liked him. I like him a lot. He made me so happy. SO FRIKIN HAPPY. There were so many problems with him though. Like my one "friend" disapproved of him. I actually know she has had a crush on him for like a year. I know this. Because of insights. That I cannot say. Anyway, she makes me feel like crap about the whole thing all the time. Ok let me back up. This boy, lets call him Harry, has a hard past. A rough past. Abused, abandoned, drugs... Mom had died, father in jail. His mom actually died while she as mad at him. And he never asked how she died, but it was a drug overdose. Anyway Harry lives with his grandmother now. She doesn't care about him. He was taken in by my moms friend. Her daughter and him dated like a year ago. Anyway he used to be really into drugs till my moms friend saved him. So, he hadn't done drugs for a while. This kid is really amazing. He took all of this and the way he turned out is crazy. No anger. Hard worker. Kind. Just an all around great person. So he really liked me. Like REALLY. And we texted and went on a couple dates. We really got along great. So great. We were so funny together. So yeah he lied a couple times but I thought nothing of it. Until he did something that I cannot say. Lets say it was trippy. A little too trippy. And he put others at risk. And he realized this. Felt awful. Apologized. And nothing else happened. I told him I don't want anything to do with drugs. Then he did something else. He was stupid. and he put himself in danger. and he became to comfortable. And now I have to stop talking to him. I arranged someone to talk to him about how I was probably feeling. Not that I wanted to stop talking but that I probably did. And now he hasn't texted me. Which im not mad about im just sad. I miss him. I miss this toxic relationship. But I cant miss it. I have to want better for myself. Which I do. I just wish the best for him. Which he will probably mess up. A heart of gold with a brain of silver. I need to move on! He already has other girls throwing themselves at him... Anyway im venting. sorry for the spelling errors. Just trying to get this across ASAP lol. BYE. LOVE LOVE LOVE U. AND U DESERVE BETTER.